Anonymous

‘The worst loneliness is not to be comfortable with yourself’ – Mark Twain

 Theres nothing more revealing about one’s self than the moment you sit alone in Victoria Station, eyes full of tears, a ticket to nowhere. You wonder whether you have the will and strength to take that long journey back to a place you no longer care for or whether you should hold onto the comfort of home for a moment more, which won’t see you fulfilling any potential.

So there you are staring into a cup of coffee, which months back used to bring you respite and bought happiness, now only representing the empty hours before a decision is demanded. It’s not revealing any truths just merely passing the seconds. You turn your music up in an attempt to drown out your own lonely thoughts for a while. No decisions or plans just stillness. Peace.

In this modern society of competition, careers and hardwork it becomes a process of burying yourself under pressures so we don’t face the demands placed upon us by ourselves. You’re so busy that you forget that your miserable and it becomes normal to feel empty and slightly lost all of the time. As the demands become more significant so does that feeling of loneliness. You could be stood in a room full of interesting and charismatic people yet you feel as though there is no-one around to listen to you. It’s the vicious circle of responsibilities and emptiness, you wonder when the cycle is going to break.

You question all the decisions you’ve ever made, the songs are still on repeat ringing through your ears. I should be happy, I have everything most people would dream about. If so many people want this then why do I feel so lost? Why are my tears neverending? Stop crying. I used to be believe tears made you vulnerable, took away the mask we show the world everyday, I now think they are the first sign of courage and acceptance.

You’re going to be brave, solve this problem one day at a time. Happiness isn’t placed upon someone it’s manufactured, you are in control of it all.

As somebody once told me, ‘do something everyday to make you smile, just one thing and it makes the days brighter’.

Don’t suffer in silence, articulate, the days get brighter.

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